Today begins the Lavender Law Conference in San Diego. Today (Thursday) is the "Career Fair" and attendees are advised to wear "interview attire". I opted (at the urging of my partner) to bring the skirted suit. We'll see how it goes.
It is now, for the first time since I began law school, that I am really faced with the hard reality of having to work after graduation. I've easily deflected the question of "what are you going to do with your law degree" in the past. Today, I really have to begin to know. I came to law school because I thought I could make a difference in the world. But the truth, of course, is that I didn't need a law degree to do that. And, indeed, I'm starting to wonder if I have instead saddled myself with an impediment to that objective (not to mention the $120k of debt). Plus, now that I am in a loving committed relationship I find that, although I still want to make a difference, I want to spend as much time with her as I can possibly arrange. That makes me look longingly toward the business world again. There, I'm pretty confident that I can make a significant amount of money in a relatively short period of time and then retire to spend with The Girl (and possibly with my kids and grandkids!).
But, then, I'm torn by the fact that the only law school classes that turn me on are classes that speak to civil rights and fundamental freedoms. I'm taking two business related courses this semester and am bored to tears with both of them.
So, now I sit here in my room, dressed for the day, having updated my resume to add an "Advocacy" section that discusses my activism and participation in the LGBT community and I prepare to go meet with a bunch of LGBT lawyers and see if I can find some balance that feels right to me.
What, oh what, do I want to be when I grow up?