Since you've been gone

Sunday, Mother's Day, is the 1 year anniversary of my mother's death.  I still miss her every single day.  Mary and I went to a concert by Cheryl Wheeler at the Ark in Ann Arbor a few weeks back and loved her so much we bought a couple of her albums.  I came across this song on one of them.  I cry every time.  I miss you, Mom.

Since You've Been Gone

Words And Music By

Cheryl Wheeler

A woman my age, sittin’ here cryin’

I oughta be stronger than I am

Oughta take comfort in wisdom or something like that

But it isn’t that way, ‘cause sooner or later

I’m still that nervous 9th grader

Watching you pull us together, I never knew how

 

And since you’ve been gone I’m just fallin’ apart

There’s a hole in my life, in my soul, in my heart

And I stare out this window till light becomes dark

And there’s nothing that’s touching me now

 

But not to complain, we’re just bereft, not deserted

Lord knows your rest was deserved

It’s just your absence is present in all that I do

In the sun in the field, in the poem I keep saying

In the hymn that some church bells were playing

You have always been part of them but I never knew

 

How could I ever begin to say?

Surely you already knew

What is this world with you gone away?

How can this finally be true?