My Girl bought me a DVD for Valentine's Day (she knows that I just love movies; she got me a dozen or so for X-mas). The title of the movie was "Better Than Chocolate" (a coming of age movie about a couple of young lesbians). From the review:
Canadian director Anne Wheeler's Better Than Chocolate is a movie for women, about women. Mostly it's about gay young women, but it is also moderately about larger issues, such as liberation and acceptance.
If you haven't seen this film, buy it and watch it; I highly recommend it. It was a totally hot, totally perfect movie to watch on Valentine's Day.
One of the supporting characters in this film is a transgender woman. I always tense up when I see a transgender woman in a film. I am pretty certain it's my own transphobia coming out and I hate that. I worry that she will be portrayed as "not-woman", or "used to be a man", or that the role will reinforce stereotypes. But, even worse for me to admit, is that I fear some side of being transgender that I try to hide will be shown. I know this is not ME on that screen, but I always feel as if I'm being put out there for all to see, critique, and question. I was *so* grateful that Peter Outerbridge did such a great job in his role as Judy. And the song "Don't Fuck with my tender, cross-gender heart" is freakin' awesome. I so want a copy of that song!
Am I the only one that feels this apprehension when watching a portrayal of your own identity on the screen? I imagine not. I imagine it's like watching a gay or lesbian flick with your hetero friends or family.